For The First Time... Again

Note Found In A Book

They want to plant doubt in your mind

Just to bring you down

But I won’t give in to them

She was saying goodbye

You can be sure that I am missing you

At this very moment

Wherever you are

In my mind, I hear music

As she holds me in her arms

It’s a sad song I don’t remember

I have done nothing wrong

But these are changing times and

People, they don’t know me

She was saying goodbye

You can be sure that I am missing you

At this very moment

Wherever you are

Music, she was my first love

Knocking on the door

And she opens herself to me

And for the first time

I can see all the colors that I know were meant for me

And I can hear all the colors that I know were meant for me

And they accept me

They accept me

Thirty Feet From The Top

I was losing my edge

Sorry now not to have her

Standing out on this ledge

Oh, what I wouldn’t do for her

Thirty feet from the top

I looked at her and she turned away

Is that all you’ve got

So close and yet so far away

We got so high

I couldn’t think now I needed air

If I made it back

I knew I wouldn’t care at all

So I pushed on into the death zone all alone

I was all alone in the death zone

The writing was on the wall it said

Now you’re gonna have to take that fall and

You know it isn’t all because your trials have just begun

Thirty feet from the top

I looked at her and she turned away

Thirty feet from the top

So you’ll live to fight another day

Oh, we’ve come so far together

Just reach down untie the teather

‘Cause I don’t care

I’ll rise like the Phoenix

From the ashes of my life

The ashes of my mind

Thirty feet from the top

I looked at her and she turned around

Thirty feet from the top

Watch me now ‘cause I’m going down

For The First Time... Again

I was just passing through

When you caught my eye

I felt something like déjà vu

Heard my heart cry

You held my hand

For the first time

And I could hardly stand

Then our lips touched

For the first time

For the first time again

We move like twin souls from one flame

Passing through the night

You are an angel at my side

Help me see the light

You held my hand for the first time

And I could hardly stand

Then our lips touched

For the first time

For the first time again

I know we’ve been here many times before

Just me and you yeah

But still that nervous energy

It somehow feels new baby

I hold your hand

For the first time

And I can hardly stand

Then our lips touch

For the first time

For the first time again

We’re falling, falling, falling in love

For the first time again

Leave That Lonely Girl Alone

Light is all around

Better keep your hands steady

Just pretend you’re on your way

If you’re not there already

Remember…

Leave that lonely girl alone

Her heart is better left unknown

So, leave that lonely girl alone

When she walks into the room

All the heads, they turn now

And all the lessons I have lived

Looks like they’ve been unlearned now

My words, they fade away

Just like the song she’s humming

I knew somehow that she would be here

Before I saw her coming

And they said…

Leave that lonely girl alone

Her heart is better left unknown

So, leave that lonely girl alone

I knew my fate was sealed

The first time that I met her

All she did was steal my heart

And all I did was let her

Something cold was in her eyes

Inside her heart was burning

Long ago I recognized

Her love would not be returning

And I’ve got to…

Leave that lonely girl alone

Her heart is better left unknown

So, leave that lonely girl alone

I Don’t Think So

Don’t make me tell you things that I don’t want to remember

I told you not to call me now

She said, “Good morning, you’re up early.”

“That’s because I haven’t been to sleep yet. And where were you?

No, I don’t think so. You should get your story straight.”

I tried to make my voice bright, but there was way too much mad in it

She wasn’t listening anyway

Then she says I’m gonna make it up to you

I’ll make it up to you

But I don’t think so

No, no I don’t think so

Will we make it through the week

No, I don’t think so

Something’s gotta fall

Then she says I’m gonna make it up to you

I’ll make it up to you

But I don’t think so

Anything she says

No, I don’t think so

Time Stands Still

I wander through the museum

And time stands still

But only for a moment

Because move on it will

It is the year 2055

I hold my grand-daughter’s hand

It’s too late to change my future

And leave to her this shattered land

I could try to explain how it was to her

If I could only remember the day

Before it all changed

Or was it always that way

We were better off when we didn’t know

You can say we were naïve

But we dealt the cards ourselves

Didn’t see the ace up his sleeve

I wander through the museum

And time stands still

But only for a moment

Because move on it will

It is the year 2070

I hold her picture in my hand

Everyone I know is gone

But by some cruel miracle I’m alive

I could try to explain to you history

I could hand you a book from my shelf

But I would swear it never happened

And I was there myself

I know it feels like it’s too late

And we’re in the eleventh hour

Now is the time for integrity

And speaking truth to power

I wander through the museum

And time stands still

But only for a moment

Because move on it will

It is the year right now and I

Wake up to a new day

Memories of the future

Come back to me

Come back to me all hazy and grey

Last night in my dream

There was no time to wait

I had all the answers

But they still all came too late

We’re in the eleventh hour

Truth isn’t always in power

I wander through the museum

And time stands still

But only for a moment...

Slide Into My Arms

Your hair falls through my fingers

Through them just like rain

And for one crazy moment

I know I’m not insane

Slide into my arms and I can feel

Like I’m home again like I know it’s real

Slide into my arms and I can feel

Like I’m home again like I know it’s real

They’ve got nothing on you, Babe

And they’ve got nothing on you

Your fragrance comes to me

Riding on a breeze

It rushes to my head

Sends me to my knees

Slide into my arms and I can feel

Like I’m home again like I know it’s real

Slide into my arms and I can feel

Like I’m home again like I know it’s real

They’ve got nothing on you, Babe

And they’ve got nothing on you

The look that’s in your eyes

I’ve never seen before

We both know that something special

Is happening for sure

Slide into my arms and I can feel

Like I’m home again like I know it’s real

Slide into my arms and I can feel

Like I’m home again like I know it’s real

They’ve got nothing on you, Babe

And they’ve got nothing on you

She Is With You

Last night I was alone

Some heavy drinking and a dream

And then I saw her

In another bar on the other side of the street

But I couldn’t get there

She was so close I couldn’t touch her

So, I watched her through the window

Until she looked in my direction

She said to tell you

Though you feel alone sometimes

When the night gets colder and colder

She is with you, she is with you

That’s her hand on your shoulder

I know you feel alone sometimes

When the night gets colder and colder

She is with you, she is with you

Feel her hand on your shoulder

I’ve been away so long

I don’t know what your life is

You would remind me too much of her

And I’d never move on with my life

And I guess that was selfish

Now, it’s too late to change anything

And she said

Though you feel alone sometimes

When the night gets colder and colder

She is with you, she is with you

That’s her hand on your shoulder

I know you feel alone sometimes

When the night gets colder and colder

She is with you, she is with you

Feel her hand on your shoulder

It’s my loss again

But I had to pass to you this information

Although it came to me in a drunken dream

She wrote this song, took over my mind

Took over my mind to channel through me

So that she might reach you

Though you feel alone sometimes

When the night gets colder and colder

She is with you, she is with you

That’s her hand on your shoulder

I know you feel alone sometimes

When the night gets colder and colder

She is with you, she is with you

Feel her hand on your shoulder

More Time

I felt that I was being shaken

So, I opened my eyes

Now aware of my light

I see where my shadow dies

Why didn’t you give to me some more time

I know I wasted so much of it

You had all the time that you needed

You just wouldn’t believe it

In the world of words

He was a wealthy man

But his real life was over

Almost before it even began

Why didn’t you give to me some more time

I know I wasted so much of it

You had all the time that you needed

You just wouldn’t believe it

I felt that I was being shaken

So, I opened my eyes

Now aware of my light

I see where my shadow dies

Why didn’t you give to me some more time

I know I wasted so much of it

You had all the time that you needed

You just didn’t believe it

For the first and only time in his life

He walked through the shadow of the curse

And felt his blood run cold

Flowing free from bad to worse

He saw it on the air

So curious and strange

But when he looked again

He knew that nothing had changed

Why didn’t you give to me some more time

You know I wasted so much of it

I had all the time that I needed

But I just didn’t believe it

His Downfall

He went to church that day thinking he had done his part

Stopped at the pub on his way home when that demon took his heart

She didn’t know what it was when she saw him from afar

Didn’t recognize herself in the mirror that ran behind the bar

She got into his car

Got into his car

At first, it started out real tame

Just an hour or two was all

I guess they both needed something

To go with nothing at all

Later on it occurred to him, he was standing on a knife

On his way to a place in time that cut into his life

As he circled the drain

Struggled to be brave

Stronger than death

More powerful than the grave

Even as he walked his eyes were cast lower and lower

Afraid to lose himself if he couldn’t wake up from the shock

And softly his song rose to its knees

Beating with the rhythm of a resurrected heartbeat

On his shoulder she was not about as well deserved

As his trophy, she could only believe slowly

In all men

In an outside room friends they came and went

Leaving their thoughts and prayers

But their sins they won’t repent

It’s okay to stand idly by while the world moves slowly on

Going in the wrong direction

Too soon, we’re here and gone

This was his world watching from above

Stronger than death

More powerful than love

For The First Time ... Again

Liner Notes

1) Note Found In A Book

She used to write me notes, then hide them in various places like time bombs or land mines that I would find maybe years later. The one main passion that we shared was music. We were together for about six years. She died of cancer eleven years ago. A few weeks ago, I pulled a book off the shelf, and one of her notes exploded into my hand. It said, “You can be sure that I am missing you at this very moment… wherever you are.”

2) Thirty Feet From The Top

Relationships can sometimes feel like you are climbing Mount Everest together. When you get close to reaching the top, you might have to decide to turn back because of weather or fatigue. This can be a life-or-death moment. When you attempt to climb Mount Everest in real life, it’s probably not a good idea to bring your ex-girlfriend with you.

3) For The First Time Again

When you find your soulmate, everything you experience is familiar. All the lives you may have lived, time spent together in some ethereal realm, every first time has a familiar feeling to it. It is as though you are living it again for the first time. So they say…

4) Leave That Lonely Girl Alone

There’s a reason that she’s lonely. You might find out too late that she is also truly dangerous.

5) Time Stands Still

We all know that we aren’t taking care of the earth. The environmental obstacles are so daunting that it’s easy to just stand by and watch it all crumble. And it’s not easy to even know what to do. As my mom used to say, and I think that our future descendants would also, “Do Something…even if it’s wrong!”

6) I Don't Think So

When it gets to this point, you know it’s time to go.

7) Slide Into My Arms

The sense of touch… your hair…your scent reaching me on a gentle breeze…the sense of sight as you look into my soul… And all the other girls I have ever known in my life… they’ve got nothing on you.

8) She Is With You

For everyone who has lost their mother, know that in your darkest hours, she is with you.

9) More Time

Now aware of my light, I see where my shadow dies. Just when you start to figure things out, your time is up too soon.

10) His Downfall

As he dies, his life flashes before his eyes. Was she his downfall? Or was it just that his life was too mundane to matter anymore? He watches while floating above. But this is no near- death experience.

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For The First Time... Again

Note Found In A Book

Thirty Feet From The Top

For The First Time... Again

Leave That Lonely Girl Alone

I Don’t Think So

Time Stands Still

Slide Into My Arms

She Is With You

More Time

His Downfall

For The First Time ... Again

Recorded in 2022

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For The First Time ... Again

Liner Notes